A Monochromatic Life

my depression is real
it follows me where ever I go
I try to run away
but it lurks in the shadows of my soul
I pretend that I’m okay
smile and say it is all fine
but reality eats away inside
making it hard to continue the lie
you’re so close
yet falling further away each day
i would reach out my hand
but i’ve lost the strength to stay
instead i’ll let myself slip
into the void of my numb remains
cuts are never deep enough
to remind my body of how to feel
the blood is never red enough
it leeches on my ability to heal
the fading color of evermore grey eyes
a monochromatic life
the once green leaves no longer receive the sunshine
eclipsed to a shadowed demise
I repeat the same lines
hoping to make sense of this repetitious pattern
there must be an end to the fire
before it burns away my will to survive
destroying everything that kept me alive
was there ever any hope
or are we living just to cope
with the fact we have nothing beyond this world
perhaps my only friend is a rope